One step closer

to that elusive bikini bod!!yes i've finally dragged my lazy ass to the gym and signed up. thanks to my colleague who agreed to be my gym partner. love u syaff! anyway, i started yesterday with just a light workout and learning to work the weights with the gym instructor. felt so good after that i decided to be brave and join the step aerobics class today.. AND DAMN it was GREAT!! no doubt the steps were tricky to follow but soon enuf i was bopping up n down w the rest of the class. it was awesome! sweat buckets!i can't wait for next week's class but i hear its gonna be cancelled coz of the long CNY hols..boo!!

anyway, with all the gym excitement, i did a major boo-boo..forgot to tell iskandar that i need him to do the money transfer thing for the maid by today..coz apparently the lazy banks of cambodia will be closed until after CNY and her family needs the $$$ to buy stuff. he was SOOOOO upset with me coz he alredi told me much earlier today was gonna be a crazy tight day with meetings n de big interview after lunch. i dunno lah, lately my memory seems to be slacking quite a bit. i remember the littlest detail but miss out on the major important stuff.

another thing he scolded me about is how it seems to him that i'm always forgetting my priorities when it comes between the kids/maid and work. NOW THAT I CANNOT ACCEPT. i forgot one thing and it means i don't pull my weight in this family?? that's just bullshit! BUT..at the risk of snapping and saying things i will regret later, i shall bite my tongue and say nothing. agree to disagree, right? sometimes it's just not worth the time arguing. ill just let it go, like water under the bridge.

just tucked my little angels into bed and gonna tuck myself in next. it's been a long day.

good night world.

Notorious I.M.R.A.N.

Argh!!! it's been another crazy night w imran again! lately he's been testing our patience to the max! earlier tonite, as usual he took close to 2hrs at the dinner table and when i went upstairs w Mia, he took his bowl to the kitchen and dumped the food in the bin! I was so pissed upon finding out but even more fired up when he flat out denied doing it! So for another night, I sent him up to his room for early bedtime, not before giving him a smack.

Days like these i wish the kids are all grown up so i can have some peace and quiet at home. They say it gets worse and i can't imagine what's worst than a 5-yr old imran. a 6-yr old imran??

Anyway, on to the positives now. I bought Mia a shape-block toy today, you know, the one where you're supposed to match the block to its right shape hole. and to my surprise, she got it right less than an hour of playing! she's so smart. sometimes i forget she's only 1 and a half. i'm teaching her shapes now and she's learnt star (her favorite) and circle. She picks up the blocks one by one asking "o-this?" as in "what's this". It's so adorable melts my heart every time :)

Just by writing this post it must be clear to anyone reading who my favorite kid at the moment is. Don't get me wrong, I love them both to bits and it's a horrible thing to think it, let alone write it for all to see. I just wonder which part of parenting did i get wrong or is this normal for kids his age. I'm limiting his tv watching and have stopped sending him to Tokmi's house after school, when i noticed he'd picked up bad language from hanging out w de bigger kids over there. But so far I see very little progress. I do talk to him about this negative behavior and it seems at that time that he understood how much this upset me. Seems like he's forgotten his promises again. I hate to repeat myself over and over again like a broken record. But he's only 5 and maybe he needs more "positive reinforcement" instead.

Ok, I'm gonna look up options on "positive reinforcements" now before I call it a day. Hope it works.

Wish me luck.

Good nite.